Linking Easter and The National Election, ahahaha...

well, what's up? long time no see i suppose, well, i got some pretty nice holidays recently, but i didnt really have the chance to update this lil' blog of mine. last 9th April is Indonesia's legislative national election, sure i participated inside it. this time's election really confused me, there are so much legislative candidates that participated inside this time's election! oh my, dont bother asking how many there are, i dont even counted them one by one, there's too much! ahahahaha... so i just vote 4 some people that i saw in the television and some people that i saw in the newspaper. i dont bother who will win, it wont make any great differences anyway. up until now, the Demokrat Party still holds the first place in results, so i think the next president will be... SBY again... *sighing of boredom* i wonder why so many people chose SBY's party again this year, but--pardon me-- SBY's leadership isnt that good last time isnt it? i mean, he decreases the fuel price in Indonesia just in the nick of time be4 the campaign for national election! he also 'bring' a lot of disasters, from the Tsunami up until the Situgintung Incident. i dont really think that Mr.SBY did something to this country... (4give me if i said something offencing) by the way, stop talking about politics, they dont suit me, i dont like politics, it's some kind of... 'dirty' things. dirty in the meaning that everyone can do anything to achieve what they want--money and power, dont care if they hurt or even might kill someone to achieve those two. there are no such thing as dont cheat, becoz i think the main rule in politics is 'cheat while u can', i think that's really disgusting...

well move on to the other topic, Easter holiday!!! yeay... so i got another holiday right after the election holiday, yes, the Easter Day Holiday! although it's just one day, i'm pretty happy with that, because indirectly, holidays decreases the works that i have to do in the office and makes a way to a nick of relaxation 4 my life. i can really get some rest, because my simple-minded brain can rest a while from the fuzzy-wuzzy errands coming together from my college and office. i spent my holidays playing computer games and visit one of my relatives, and on the Easter day, 2 of my cousins, Elvy and Michael visited me in my home. Elvy is the one who taught me a lil' about blogging and i'm really grateful 4 that.

the condition with me and Albert, the half-angel boy hasnt change a bit, nothing has happened since the day that he scolded me via sms, he didnt even want to apologize, he didnt call, he didnt do anything about our relationship. he still keeps quiet about the reason he left me, but i cant pretend that i havent (and i wont) move on. i cried every single night be4 my sleeps, i dreamt of him coming back to me every time i dream in my sleeps, then wakes up desperately to know that he's still no sign of coming back, that i's still all alone, crying without any shoulder to lean on. i'm really sad, i fell but i cant get up, i cant walk, i'm afraid of what's beyond... becoz i lost my savior, my sanctuary, i lost everything that i ever wanted, i lost my Albert and his love, along with his passion for loving me... that's why, i would like to say, treasure the ones you love, don't ever hurt them, protect them with all the forces you have, so you wont have the regret, pain, and suffering that i feel right now.

i realize, maybe i'm not strong enough to protect him...
maybe i'm not uesful enough 4 him...
maybe i didnt say 'i love u' enough times to him...
but i only hope...
if he doesnt love me anymore, then i would like to have the chance to tell him how much i love him 4ever and ever,
be4 i close my eyes and stop my heart from beating...

Happy Easter Day!

love to live and live to love