Two Years

Yeah,exactly 2 years has passes since I last wrote on this blog, I won't say that it has been a long time,because I've said that for like hundred times,LoL,talk about being lazy updating my blog. I missed blogging,and although nobody reads this I'll keep posting anyway,for the sake of a legacy for anyone who wants to know about me :D

I'm now pretty much fine with my life. I'm still a humble English teacher somewhere, now I have a boyfriend for almost 4 years already and in my 23rd year of life,I'm still looking for who I really am,a writer? Illustrator? Or just simply a woman without something special in her entire life. I'm still searching, I want to leave behind a legacy that my children and grandchildren will be proud of,but still I can't find any.

Now people may call me a bit religious,but actually I'm not, I just surrender myself to Jesus Christ, because I can't find my purpose in life. I surrender to God's will, I believe that He'll make me become like that special someone. Lol, for now I can't mention yet who is that special someone,but because of him I got a new insight about discovering myself...

I've actually fallen for him,but he's not mine to begin with... I was sad, and I questioned myself,why didn't I meet this wonderful man earlier in my life? Why now? I found Jesus, but I'm broken hearted as well... how I wish I am his and he's mine! But I just want to convince myself that it perhaps is too late to do anything anymore, I hope that Jesus will heal me and help me tp deal with this pain...

I'll keep on going to praise Him although I can't be with this special someone, I believe that my journey is still long, I may be able to find someone like him again, someone who is a true miracle, that God had molded to become an example that God really is here, all the time... I just want to experience that miracle too :)