things had gone hectic and super tiring in my job, there are just too much things to do while my salary isn't worth what i'm doing rite now. this is frustrating, with all the workloads, the annoying students' parents, the inconsiderate boss, and of course the lack of motivation and incentives, i still have to cope with the things in college, a lot of subjects are coming by, making it harder and harder for me as i have to study and catch up with all the workloads at my workplace as well. i almost feel like i'm fighting alone with my studies and my work. i don't mind studying, since i can almost always get a good grade afterward, but in working, things just don't work as i planned and i always have to bear with it, it's just too much and there's not even enough for my monthly expenses since this new semester started. i'm thinking of getting a new job again after i settle the conditions in my studies. i'm feeling so disappointed by the authorities in my workplace and almost feel suffocated by all their tasks for me, without paying me properly. this thing is just way too much already and i can't take it anymore, i think. if somebody reads this, i hope that they can give me some advices, since it's so confusing for me, being an English teacher in this place is just so unappreciated with all this low payment. if the authorities don't fix this problem soon, working as an admin staff in offices will be wise although i hate it so much, but i can cover the expenses and still able to take some savings for myself.
what do you think? i just can't make up my mind yet...by the way,thanks for reading n see u soon :)
Sabtu, 12 Maret 2011
Jumat, 18 Februari 2011
Comment!
yeay.......!! there's somebody who commented on my blog about my movie review and praised it!woa... it's a happy news for me that someone actually starting to notice and read my blog. i think i'll start to write again and write more in my blog. i hope that you, my readers, will continue to support me from now on, arigatou gozaimasu, minna-san...! \^0^/ hee hee hee...
these days, workplace seems to be a burden for me, it's hard, since i'm responsible for teaching not only English to the little children but also behavioral things and manners, that's so hard, and i think i got 2 autistic children in my class as well, giving it more frustration 2 us, the teachers, this semester is so hard for me, the (potentially) autistic children are hyperactive and can't sit still, running around the class, causing trouble, noises, and headache. their parents seem like don't want 2 accept the fact that their children is having this kind of trouble and thus causing headache and pity from us, the teachers.
these children need special attention, really, but their mother doesn't understand it, and just continue sending them 2 the normal school like my workplace,huff...and then the parents are just so annoying, selfish, and stingy. in my country, teachers really is an underestimated occupation, we are paid really terribly low. my salary even can't make a living for just myself, government is just the same with those parents, they can only make things go miserable for the 'small people' like me and other 'peasants, living a miserable life that seem never ends, now i understand how the teachers feel bout this country...
i decided that i (like it or not) have to leave the job as a teacher, i can't live with this kind of salary and the attitudes of the 'upper level people' and those annoying, inconsiderate parents of nowadays, it's unbearable, since the job's a lot, and i get terribly low salary for all my effort up until now. i have a future 2 support, and things 2 reach and catch, with this kind of income, those dreams are impossible for me, very very very impossible... i'll have to go back and face the numbers and the cubicles that i detest the most, making a better income and living for myself,this is the sacrifice i hope that will worth the outcome in the future, that in the end, i'll finally be able 2 taste the true sweetness of the fruits of my labors, not this bitter fruit i get from my current great efforts, that finally, i'll be well paid by myself ^^d
well well, this is it for now, thanks for reading and please do leave a comment or words, thank u so much n i'll write u again very soon, ciao...!
\^0^ ja matta ne,minna-san...
these days, workplace seems to be a burden for me, it's hard, since i'm responsible for teaching not only English to the little children but also behavioral things and manners, that's so hard, and i think i got 2 autistic children in my class as well, giving it more frustration 2 us, the teachers, this semester is so hard for me, the (potentially) autistic children are hyperactive and can't sit still, running around the class, causing trouble, noises, and headache. their parents seem like don't want 2 accept the fact that their children is having this kind of trouble and thus causing headache and pity from us, the teachers.
these children need special attention, really, but their mother doesn't understand it, and just continue sending them 2 the normal school like my workplace,huff...and then the parents are just so annoying, selfish, and stingy. in my country, teachers really is an underestimated occupation, we are paid really terribly low. my salary even can't make a living for just myself, government is just the same with those parents, they can only make things go miserable for the 'small people' like me and other 'peasants, living a miserable life that seem never ends, now i understand how the teachers feel bout this country...
i decided that i (like it or not) have to leave the job as a teacher, i can't live with this kind of salary and the attitudes of the 'upper level people' and those annoying, inconsiderate parents of nowadays, it's unbearable, since the job's a lot, and i get terribly low salary for all my effort up until now. i have a future 2 support, and things 2 reach and catch, with this kind of income, those dreams are impossible for me, very very very impossible... i'll have to go back and face the numbers and the cubicles that i detest the most, making a better income and living for myself,this is the sacrifice i hope that will worth the outcome in the future, that in the end, i'll finally be able 2 taste the true sweetness of the fruits of my labors, not this bitter fruit i get from my current great efforts, that finally, i'll be well paid by myself ^^d
well well, this is it for now, thanks for reading and please do leave a comment or words, thank u so much n i'll write u again very soon, ciao...!
\^0^ ja matta ne,minna-san...
Kamis, 10 Juni 2010
About Remember Me...
recently i just watched the movie 'Remember Me' that is starred by the Mr. Popular Vampire, yups, no other than the gorgeous Robert Pattinson. this movie is pretty good with fine stories and also love scenes. the kissings are hot too, haha. makes me a lil' bit jealous to the woman main character.
the movie's opening is also pretty cool, with gunshot and a killing. robbery is the first scene that u r gonna find in this movie. and that's pretty cool. the story itself is just evolving around the main character Tyler Hawkins (RobPatz) that was a rebellious young man to his workaholic father (Pierce Brosnan) after his brother, Michael's death (suicide). although that he seemed a bit bad boy and mysterious, but Tyler really loves his lil' sister, Caroline (that suffered bullying from her friends). there's one scene that's really cool in Caroline's classroom in the movie, but i won't write it here, so u can check out the movie itself.
the story overall is fine, but i don't really like the ending when Tyler had to be killed in the 9/11 in the 2001. just when his relationship with his father is moving 2 a better way and better condition. it looked like there's no more chance 4 Tyler just in the time when he wished to change to a better person for his girlfriend, Ally (Emilie de Ravin). and then, the camera's not too good, there are some scenes that the camera's moving and shaking, resulting in disturbance of watching the movie itself.
but the most important value of the movie is to treasure evrything important in your life and do the best to them and to keep them. we don't know when we will lose them and go to the place that we won't see them anymore... that's the heart-wrenching message that i got from watching the movie.
oh yeah, one trivia if u don't know, this movie is produced by Summit Entertainment, the same PH of the Twilight Saga. i was surprised 2 know that since the 'quality' of the movie isn't as good as the Twilight Saga. heheh...
so be sure to watch it, RobPatz sure can turn ur emotion upside down in this movie. gorgeous as usual, haha.
well, see u again in the next post! thanx 4 reading n please din't hesitate 2 comment about this blog! tha tha...
Senin, 26 April 2010
So Close Yet So Far...
kali ini juga masih bicara soal atashi no kimochi, alias perasaaan. yups, masih bgt. soal prasaan sih memang bukan lagi topik yang baru, tapi berhubung memang pengen aku ceritakan, maka aku akan ceritakan. (pake bahasa Indonesia emang paling aman, berhubung buat jaga2 image ;-p)
beberapa hari sudah berlalu semenjak aku berkenalan dan dekat dengan seseorang yang menurutku bisa mengerti keadaanku yang baru aja ditinggalin sama Al-kun, si ouji-sama masa laluku. sampai sekarang Al-kun belum juga memberikan kabar apa2 padaku, tidak juga menemuiku atau apapun. nothing, tidak ada sama sekali. it's like everything is so over within the 2 of us, bahwa kami sama sekali tidak pernah bersama selamanya. rasanya agak mnyakitkan juga untukku, yang sebenarnya menghargai sebuah hubungan dan, kalau sekalipun kami sudah berpisah, setidaknya kami adalah teman yang pernah berbagi waktu spesial bersama. memang, masa lalu tak baik terus diingat2, apalagi terbayang2 sampai sekarang, namun, hendaknya, kalau ada sesuatu yang bisa diselamatkan dari sesuatu yang rudak itu, maka aku ingin menyelamatkannya, bukan untuk mengembalikannya ke bentuknya yang semula (which is impossible bgt), tapi untuk dimetamorfosakan menjadi sesuatu yang baru, yang takkan lagi terkait dengan masa lalu yang pahit itu.
namun, itikad baik ini tak ditanggapi oleh yang bersangkutan,and i'll consider it as over, selesai sampai di sini, toh dia juga tidak pernah mengatakan akan mengizinkan aku kembali padanya sebagai orang yang baru sekalipun.
well, aku mengaku, aku tengah mengulur2 waktu crapping soal orang yang gak penting lagi untuk menunda membicarakan orang yang satu ini di sini. he's the new guy in my life. i loved him, may be i really adore him, 4 he always said that he accept me 4 who i am. i'm really glad 2 hear that, n i hope that he IS the last 1 4 me.
tapi... semenjak kami bertemu, tampaknya ia jadi 'sedikit dingin' padaku, he didnt even call me his angel anymore. dia bilang kalau dia saat ini sedang sibuk, dan aku juga tidak boleh menjadi seseorang yang egois meskipun ia jauh lebih tua dariku. i really like him, dekai2 daisuki yo...but...huff...
i understand kalau aku ini mungkin tak sebaik yang dia sangka, tak sehebat yang dia duga, but i think he was keeping quiet n didnt really care about me anymore... so... apakah kali ini aku harus kandas lagi??atau ini cuma kekhawatiran yang tak beralasan?? aku juga belum paham benar, mengingat aku ini bukan tipe yang bisa dengan mudahnya mendapatkan cinta yang baru. i treasure this love n respect of him so much, that i might mhurt myself again, i might 'kill' myself again if i lose this one precious chance...
hm...
baru selesai presentation marketing plan soal membuka usaha yang baru yang kira2 bisa laris di kota Medan tercinta ini. presentationnya lancar, dan aku masih saja lumayan gugup karena ga terbiasa dengan atmosfer kyk gini,khu2...
masih ada final test yang diadakan minggu dpan, ga tau bisa ikut apa gak, soalnya ada masalah sma managemnt di sana (ingat kn post trakhr tu???) well, just wish 4 the best 2 come deh...
wish me luck guys n thx 4 reading ^^
(yg uda bca posting komen kek... plit amat ngomongnya...XD)
beberapa hari sudah berlalu semenjak aku berkenalan dan dekat dengan seseorang yang menurutku bisa mengerti keadaanku yang baru aja ditinggalin sama Al-kun, si ouji-sama masa laluku. sampai sekarang Al-kun belum juga memberikan kabar apa2 padaku, tidak juga menemuiku atau apapun. nothing, tidak ada sama sekali. it's like everything is so over within the 2 of us, bahwa kami sama sekali tidak pernah bersama selamanya. rasanya agak mnyakitkan juga untukku, yang sebenarnya menghargai sebuah hubungan dan, kalau sekalipun kami sudah berpisah, setidaknya kami adalah teman yang pernah berbagi waktu spesial bersama. memang, masa lalu tak baik terus diingat2, apalagi terbayang2 sampai sekarang, namun, hendaknya, kalau ada sesuatu yang bisa diselamatkan dari sesuatu yang rudak itu, maka aku ingin menyelamatkannya, bukan untuk mengembalikannya ke bentuknya yang semula (which is impossible bgt), tapi untuk dimetamorfosakan menjadi sesuatu yang baru, yang takkan lagi terkait dengan masa lalu yang pahit itu.
namun, itikad baik ini tak ditanggapi oleh yang bersangkutan,and i'll consider it as over, selesai sampai di sini, toh dia juga tidak pernah mengatakan akan mengizinkan aku kembali padanya sebagai orang yang baru sekalipun.
well, aku mengaku, aku tengah mengulur2 waktu crapping soal orang yang gak penting lagi untuk menunda membicarakan orang yang satu ini di sini. he's the new guy in my life. i loved him, may be i really adore him, 4 he always said that he accept me 4 who i am. i'm really glad 2 hear that, n i hope that he IS the last 1 4 me.
tapi... semenjak kami bertemu, tampaknya ia jadi 'sedikit dingin' padaku, he didnt even call me his angel anymore. dia bilang kalau dia saat ini sedang sibuk, dan aku juga tidak boleh menjadi seseorang yang egois meskipun ia jauh lebih tua dariku. i really like him, dekai2 daisuki yo...but...huff...
i understand kalau aku ini mungkin tak sebaik yang dia sangka, tak sehebat yang dia duga, but i think he was keeping quiet n didnt really care about me anymore... so... apakah kali ini aku harus kandas lagi??atau ini cuma kekhawatiran yang tak beralasan?? aku juga belum paham benar, mengingat aku ini bukan tipe yang bisa dengan mudahnya mendapatkan cinta yang baru. i treasure this love n respect of him so much, that i might mhurt myself again, i might 'kill' myself again if i lose this one precious chance...
hm...
baru selesai presentation marketing plan soal membuka usaha yang baru yang kira2 bisa laris di kota Medan tercinta ini. presentationnya lancar, dan aku masih saja lumayan gugup karena ga terbiasa dengan atmosfer kyk gini,khu2...
masih ada final test yang diadakan minggu dpan, ga tau bisa ikut apa gak, soalnya ada masalah sma managemnt di sana (ingat kn post trakhr tu???) well, just wish 4 the best 2 come deh...
wish me luck guys n thx 4 reading ^^
(yg uda bca posting komen kek... plit amat ngomongnya...XD)
Sabtu, 24 April 2010
Flippin' a New Page For a New Beginning
after such a long time i didnt write anything in particular here, i think it's time i got to tell u something. i moved on, may be forever and ever, without considering the past, about all the thing.
first of all, i am really gonna move out, outta my house, really out. my old house, that i'm gonna miss. i live in that house for some time, for really a long time, sampe sekarang barulah aku pindah. banyak alasan yang menyertai kenapa aku pindah, dari faktor eksternal sampe internal yang ga bisa aku beberkan di sini. soal kerjaan, i resigned, mengingat tempat yang ga kondusif sampe ke alasan2 yang bersifat pribadi bgt.
yang kedua, soal Albert, i think it's time 2 move on, mengingat dia tak lagi mengabariku apa2 soal keputusannya mengenai status kami. dulu, aku memang mengharapkan kalau kami bisa sedikitnya memulai awal yang baru setelah kami kembali berkomunikasi, tapi pada kenyataannya, kalau aku tidak memulai percakapan, maka dia tidak akan memulainya sama sekali, mungkin kalian semua tahu kalau aku bukanlah seseorang yang banyak bicara dengan lawan bicaraku karena aku gampang merasa gugup, namun aku tidak bisa begitu saja menerima semua ini, semua 'kedinginan' ini, terasa menyakitkan, maka aku memutuskan bahwa mungkin sudah saatnya aku memulai, bukan memulai memohon2 padanya akan apa yang terjadi pada kami mungkin bisa saja menjadi sebuah awal yang baru yang kemungkinan akan membawa kami ke jenjang yang lebih baik (ok, i even don't get what i'm saying), namun memulai awal yang benar2 baru di dalam lembaran hidupku
yups, soal perasaan pun aku harus mau tak mau move on. karena aku takkan bisa bertahan dalam keadaan seperti ini, sudah cukup menderita rasanya aku menjalani semuanya sendiri. saat ini aku tengah dekat dengan seseorang, dan demi seseorang ini aku harus melupakan semuanya dan memulai dari nol kembali, menjadi orang yang baru. orang spesial ini mengetahui semua tentang diriku, semuanya, bahkan yang tidak kukatakan di sini, sampai ke semuanya.
soal penampilan, rambutku abies!! gara2 nyokap nih, yg ga tahan liat rambut aku yang katanya panjang ga keurus, praktis aja dia maksa aku pendekin rambut sependek Agnes Monica di iklan sampo itu tuh, walah2...mau ga mau aku sih ya aja, hitung2 imechen alias ganti imej, ga tau deh bagus apa kagak, ;-p
intinya, i'm really flipping a new page, dan memulai semuanya lagi, well, wish me luck ya guys, thx for reading this ^^v
first of all, i am really gonna move out, outta my house, really out. my old house, that i'm gonna miss. i live in that house for some time, for really a long time, sampe sekarang barulah aku pindah. banyak alasan yang menyertai kenapa aku pindah, dari faktor eksternal sampe internal yang ga bisa aku beberkan di sini. soal kerjaan, i resigned, mengingat tempat yang ga kondusif sampe ke alasan2 yang bersifat pribadi bgt.
yang kedua, soal Albert, i think it's time 2 move on, mengingat dia tak lagi mengabariku apa2 soal keputusannya mengenai status kami. dulu, aku memang mengharapkan kalau kami bisa sedikitnya memulai awal yang baru setelah kami kembali berkomunikasi, tapi pada kenyataannya, kalau aku tidak memulai percakapan, maka dia tidak akan memulainya sama sekali, mungkin kalian semua tahu kalau aku bukanlah seseorang yang banyak bicara dengan lawan bicaraku karena aku gampang merasa gugup, namun aku tidak bisa begitu saja menerima semua ini, semua 'kedinginan' ini, terasa menyakitkan, maka aku memutuskan bahwa mungkin sudah saatnya aku memulai, bukan memulai memohon2 padanya akan apa yang terjadi pada kami mungkin bisa saja menjadi sebuah awal yang baru yang kemungkinan akan membawa kami ke jenjang yang lebih baik (ok, i even don't get what i'm saying), namun memulai awal yang benar2 baru di dalam lembaran hidupku
yups, soal perasaan pun aku harus mau tak mau move on. karena aku takkan bisa bertahan dalam keadaan seperti ini, sudah cukup menderita rasanya aku menjalani semuanya sendiri. saat ini aku tengah dekat dengan seseorang, dan demi seseorang ini aku harus melupakan semuanya dan memulai dari nol kembali, menjadi orang yang baru. orang spesial ini mengetahui semua tentang diriku, semuanya, bahkan yang tidak kukatakan di sini, sampai ke semuanya.
soal penampilan, rambutku abies!! gara2 nyokap nih, yg ga tahan liat rambut aku yang katanya panjang ga keurus, praktis aja dia maksa aku pendekin rambut sependek Agnes Monica di iklan sampo itu tuh, walah2...mau ga mau aku sih ya aja, hitung2 imechen alias ganti imej, ga tau deh bagus apa kagak, ;-p
intinya, i'm really flipping a new page, dan memulai semuanya lagi, well, wish me luck ya guys, thx for reading this ^^v
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